Not Miserable.. .Just rly angry

Hey. Once again a bad bad day. Anyways let me tell u all about it.

Talent #10
I am very good on judging people and getting who they are right away.
-- Yesterday I trusted a guy. And it felt good despite the fact that I know him. I knew I couldnt trust him. I know who he is. I know what terrible things hes done (and i mean illegal) and yet i trusted him. Wrong move. He said he couldnt talk. He was at a friends house. He said he would help me today. So i trusted him. Today when he comes online its not him. It is his friend. And he told his friend about what i said. And it hurt. I know who he is and yet i still trusted him.

Talent #11
I am very good at being a terrible person/friend.
-- I had a friend once. A best friend, a friend like no other. And i loved her even though she thought that it was weird that i cared so much. She thought it was wrong that I loved her. I loved her as a sister. She didnt understand. I have not talked to her all summer. I was suppoused to do something with her yesterday. She ended up not being able 2. We fought. I was mean. Then i found out why she never texted me back. And i feel like a moron. But it really doesnt matter because she wasnt there for me when i cried. She ignored it. But i still love her even if she is afraid of being loved. And once again this is why i hate loving someone. Because love is really pain. And that is that. Dear friend of mine, if you ever read this... even years to come just know im sorry and that i will always love you.

So who am i?
Basically im just a terrible person.

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Miserable

Hello again. Anyways lets just cut to the chase...

Talent #6
I am very good at crying.
-- I could cry for hours and never feel better. I cry over things that happened 8 months ago. I cry because Im falling in love and I just know it will end badly. And i cry because I dont understnd why life is really worth living.

Talent #7
Im very good at not being able to trust people.
-- I dont like 2 trust people because once you tell them something you cant take it back. It is forever.

Talent #8
I am good at falling in love and falling hard.
-- When i fall for someone i fall hard. I fall so hard it hurts. And when I finally get my head to stop spinning i realize what i have done. And then it is over. And i trip. And i dont think i can get back up. Because love is really trust and once the love is gone the scars come out. And the scars never rly go away they are just blocked up. And that is why I do not like people because they just hurt.

Talent #9
Im really good at dwelling on things that I cant change.
-- When i cant fix something or when i cant change something it is always on my mind. Like failed relationships are always there. Always in my mind. Always making me cry.

So who am i?
I am a untrusting, unloving, miserable girl who has masarca running down her face.

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Too tired to think

Hello again. Lets just get the point shall we?

Talent #4
I am very good at sleeping.
--Today i went to bed at 2 am. I woke up at 12 and then watched tv for about an hour. than i slept till 4 pm. And it prob helps that im sick...

Talent # 5
I can grin and bare it when i want to.
-- I had to go to work tonight. I hate hate hate my job. But i made it through even though im sick. And im richer too.

Anyways really tired now sooo talk to you l8r.

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Let it Begin

Does anyone ever know who they really are? When someone dies do they know exactly what kind of person they are? Do they know if they could go 10 minutes without saying the word like? Do they really know who they are and what they have done with their life? Well I want to find out.

People always have talents. People say I have talents. I just nod my head. But I am really wondering what they are talking about. There are very few talents I know that I have. As of right now I can name about three... Do bad talents count?

Anyways the reason I'm doing this is because of a movie. Yes, yes I know vey lame but hey it was a good movie. Also I keep wondering if life is worth living if I don’t even really know who I am. So let me set up my ground rules. I must give t least 2 talents about myself each day but no more than 4 per one day. I must have a total of 1,000 talents by August 15, 2010. And they must be honest talents... Well I guess i should begin now....

Talent #1
I (think) I’m good at writing poetry.
-- I have been writing poetry for almost 4 years now. It has gotten progressively better. I do well in forensics and I do get comments from the judges but what really matters is what I think. And the sad fact is is that I don’t know what I think and that is the reason why I’m writing this blog. One time a boy started laughing in the midst of one of my pieces. Afterwards he came up tom me after our room was done. He said no offense but my coach says that whenever someone does poetry its either like Dr. Seuss or if they wrote its very teen angst. No offense of course. I said none taken.... Moron. I know, I know so mature of me but hey... He was very well u know... (And that is what I can remember that he said… It was a while ago!)

Talent #2
I am good at public speaking
-- I have been public speaking for 4 years now. And this is on talent I know I am good at. I have only ever gotten one red ribbon at forensics. So yeah...

Talent #3
I can learn a years worth of French in a month.
-- I had to learn a years worth of French for school so I could get into French 2 because they weren’t offering French 1 and I needed a foreign language for college so I tested, and I passed....

And I think that is all for tonight. And yet there is more I could say I’m just not sure I want to say it.

So who am I?

I am a poetry writer who reads her poems well and can speak some French. At least I think...

Well it has begun. Bet I can’t finish this though. :)

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